User blog:SalemtheCruel/I think I've finally snapped......

Ever since last spring I’ve been afraid of going crazy. These past few days it feels like it’s gotten worse. I’m terrified I’m randomly going to kill myself for absolutely no reason. I know that might sound ridiculous or probably even just insane, but it’s true.

I can’t really tell my family about this because I’m afraid they’d tell me to get professional help, which scares the crap out of me. I don’t want my life to be reduced to sitting in a psychiatrist’s office all day, drugged up on medications.

I haven’t told many people here I’m like this either because I’m afraid they’ll tell me to either: See a psychiatrist/psychologist or just shrink away from me. And whoever reads this blog, PLEASE take it seriously and don’t make cute little jokes about it (Llamao, I mean YOU!) don’t make random emo comments saying I should just give up and do it (Skal) and above all DON’T tell me to get professional help. I’m sick of this and I want my life back; but at this rate it seems impossible now. Someone help me; just offer a few words of encouragement because if I've ever needed them it's now.