User blog:Thornclaw Braveheart/Apology

Hi guys, it's me, Thornclaw. I just want to openly apologize and say how sorry I am for the incident the day before. I haven't had much of a good Thanksgiving break and I've shouted at in real life who knows how many times. Plus, I've been losing friends in the real world as well, but not for the same reasons. However, none of those are excuses for what I said, and if anyone should be yelled at, it's me. I made many people feel bad, I lost so many friends, and most of all, I ruined myself. Now, I hope to make up for everything, although nothing will truly get rid of these bad memories. I'll ignore Lathagarr's Q&A page for now on. I also lay blame mostly on these hormones of mine! I want them to leave now! I may have mentioned already that I have a few mental problems and I've been going through some hard times in my life. Most of you probably know what that feels like. Also, there's something really important I need to tell all of you. All those times when I said I was going to leave Wikia, I was actually testing all Users here to see if anyone cared for me, or if I was just another rookie User. Well, I'm not a rookie anymore. I was once the User with the second-most contributions on this Wiki, and on the Speeqe, when I went by the term "Thorn'sMom", I was trying to apologize, but I was worried that Neil wouldn't except it if I apologized as Thornclaw. Anyways, it's been a hard year, and I'm still recovering from the death of one of my friends from cancer, even though that was more than a year ago. Believe me, I am NOT the happiest person alive, and I realized shortly after creating this account that talking to other Redwall fans would be one of few things that actually makes me happy. Looking back at yesterday, that hasn't exactly been true, not just for me, but for anyone. I'm really sorry, guys. I finish this post with a little cover song I coincidentally thought up just now to the tune of Yesterday by The Beatles.

Yesterday, an argument seemed so far away!

But now it looks like one is here to stay,

Oh, I believe in yesterday!

Suddenly, I'm hated more than I used to be!

There's a shadow hanging over me!

Oh, yesterday, came suddenly,

Why we fought that war I don't know,

I cannot say,

I said something wrong now I long,

For yesterday!

Yesterday, Wiki was just a game to play,

Now all I wish is to hide away,

Oh, I believed in yesterday!

There's no excuse for my words,

I lost many friends,

Now I'm in ruins and it seems,

Like my life's end!

Yesterday, Wiki was just a game to play,

But now hatred is here today,

Oh, how I long for yesterday!