User blog comment:SalemtheCruel/I think I've finally snapped....../@comment-1399757-20111005171158

I think this is something happening to a lot of people these days - you just need to try and take a step back and collect yourself first. It may be difficult and perhaps you won't be able to fully "step back" so to speak, but just get yourself to a spot where you can calm down for a moment, even if it is only half-way. Forget anything that is oppressing or doesn't make sense and just take a breather. Then try to solve whatever problem you're having or share it with someone you're willing to share it with if you do. You say you feel like you might just randomly kill yourself some time, and I can understand in a way because it sounds like a form of unchecked impulsiveness, which I have had experience with before. It is a psychological "problem" as far as I have experienced, but it isn't a disease or sickness or defection - it is just a "glitch" so to speak and it can be overcome.

Just try to realize that a situation is only what you make it out to be - you have the choice whether or not to be positive or negative about something. You probably don't feel like this right now, but that is possibly because you haven't taken hold of the problem you're struggling with yet. Just know that it is possible and that there is quite a bit of happiness to be had while you're alive. Bad things will happen in life - probably horrible things, and they may even last years, but what logic states that joy doesn't come with some pain, or vice versa? Look at George Washington for instance [I know it's cliche but bear with me. I just read about him in history.] - in the War for Independence he was not only IMMENSELY out-numbered by the enemy, but he was horrible at strategy, had hardly any loyal soldiers [he had troops deserting from his own lines during some battles!], had to spend winter time at Valley Forge [little food, no shelter, lots of snow and wind], and no good generals whatsoever. One of them actually turned traitor [because another general took all the credit for winning a battle] and another got captured by the British while eating his breakfast. Yet Washington still won the war - and the most prominent reason was his perseverance and unwillingness to give up. There were 2 other main reasons the Americans won, but none of those would have mattered if Washington hadn't gone on. He once commented on how horribly he felt, something along the lines of - "If I were to wish the most horrible curse on my enemies, I would put them in the same place as myself." But in spite of his feelings he carried on. I hope that serves as a morale boost and I hope you start feeling better.