User blog:Pinedance Coneslinger/A Few Words

Soooo-hoooo... We've all seen the general emo-ness that seems to cling to this site and its affiliates, haven't we? I'm not going to pretend to be all smart about the issue and magically make things better, or really say anything that will be of use to anybody. But over the course of this whole year, I've just seen it degrading. I shan't go off on a what we used to be like rant - Neil has a good one of those on his blog if you want to read (which I suggest you do)-. I just feel the need to say something that will maybe encourage people.

Knowing me, I'll probably make things worse. But it's worth a shot, eh?

There's been an inordinate amount of talk regarding cutting, potential suicide, depression, and all that good stuff. Heartbreak, shunning, being ignored, or getting a bit too much attention, all of that. None of it's very fun.

One has to remember though that you are not the only person who is going through tough times. EVERYONE on the face of the earth goes through stuff like that at some point in their lives. Some more then others, and to different degrees. But we all know pain and depression. I'm willing to bet that there's not a single person on this wiki who hasn't thought about suicide, cutting, or something else on some occasion.

You may not want to talk about what's hurting you and always act like everything's just dandy even when it's wearing down on you and it irritates you like none other when you see someone openly telling people about their pains. You just itch to scream at them that they don't know anything about true pain (I'm really overusing this word, aren't I?) and to just man up and bear it silently. That's fine. I'm like that.

Or you may want to talk with everyone and let it be known when you're not feeling so great. You want sympathy and to see others ignoring you just sets you off. That's fine too. I know people like that.

Or you're one of the in-betweens who'll let people know when something's wrong, but don't want to talk about it at length, or just get it over with in one big rush and move on. Again, that's fine.

We're all human. We all have different ways of dealing with the obstacles life thrusts in our path. We have to keep in mind though that all of us here are teenagers, so there are hormones to consider. Hormones that may make you think something's a lot bigger then it is.

Obstacles.

That's the key word. Obstacles.

It's like a race. There are things set in your path, but to get to the finish line and whatever waits for you there, you have to get past the obstacles. Otherwise, you slam into them, and it's just crash and burn. That's a lot worse then manuvering around them. It hurts more.

If you're currently contemplating suicide, there's this one thought I have that constantly keeps me from it. It's that whatever you're going through, it's temporary. Once you get through it, you'll be stronger then ever before. You have fantastic friends and family. There are so many GOOD things in life. And the good outweigh the bad, oh, they do. If you take your life, you're loosing all of that. You'll never be able to make your dreams reality. For example, I was going through some dark stuff myself and came pretty darn close to just going, "You know what, I can't take this anymore. I can't. So, why live with it when I can make it go away with a single knife thrust?"

But I got through it. I'm still getting through it. And hey, lookie! Ever since I first heard of horse shows, I wanted to compete in one. And just last week, my riding teacher told me about some shows and asked if I'd be interested in attending them, AND my parents said, "Go for it!" If I'd succumbed to the dark desires, that wouldn't have happened.

As for cutting, it's an addiction. You deal with it how you would any other addiction. Maybe it'll take a while to break. But it will. And if you're considering cutting, DON'T. Please. You just wind up hurting yourself and worrying the people around you. I know that it might seem satisfying to take out your anger on yourself and fascinating to watch yourself bleed, but don't. It really doesn't do anything to help matters.

If you're going to yell at me how I don't know, I do, actually. I'll admit that I used to cut. Did it help in any way? Nopers. It just made me an emo, self-centered brat.

If you feel like you can't talk with anyone about your problems, just get out a piece of paper and a pen and rant. Rant, rant, rant. Then, once you're done, read through your rant and throw it away. That's actually quite freeing.

On the other hand, if you can talk to people, by all means do. Talk and find a way through what's bugging you.

"But, Ta-aaaaav," you say. "It doesn't work LIKE that! You have no ide-"

Stop. Right there. I do. Everyone here does. Sure, we all feel different degrees, but we all feel it. 'Kay? Putting other people down won't help your case at all.

It does work like that. Bad stuff happens. You get depressed. You get through it. Things get better. Nice cycle, no?

Music helps quite a bit too. Songs that helped me are "So Small" by Carrie Underwood, "Stand in the Rain" by Superchick, "Kristy, are you doing okay?" by... not sure who, and stuff like that.

I just realized how long this is getting. Sorry! ;A; I will free you from my distracted ramblings and let you get on with your lives.